SHE IS FREE

Mum it's been 3 years since you walked free
And damn it's had such a huge impact on me
At 13 year's old I didn't have any hope
If i'm honest I gave up I couldn't cope
I mean who can when you're put in a position that makes your life a living hell
I don't know if you can tell but I felt so helpless and broken
It's a huge part of why I left it unspoken.

I took the pain out on myself
Telling myself 'what's the point in asking for help'
No one will be there
No one will care
I just held on to this blade
And looking back it was the biggest mistake I ever made
I didn't try in school I never got a decent grade
I thought this 'darkness' was something that forever stayed.

I got to the age of 15 and I lost so many people in my life
But let me tell you something I turned out alright
Things got hard but I faced them each and everyday
The pain won't completely go away but it gets so much better
I used to look back at every single letter my mum sent
But now they've been thrown away because I don't need the past dragging me down
If I could give my 13 year old self some advise it would be to
Not stay up at night and cry, to keep your head up and try
To not give up on somebody that you love
Just keep going and everything will one day feel okay
Just keep looking towards the future and love with all your heart
By doing that not very much can tear you apart.