Sick & Tired!
just bottled up feelings
I'm sick and tired of being pushed into the shadows
I'm sick and tired of being ignored whenever I try to say hello
I'm sick and tired of worrying about everyone else
Like seriously, go away, I'm done. Go fk yourself!
Nothing is going to change because no one wants to accept change
Nothing is going to change because people are so spineless and deranged!
I'm sick and tired of helping other people
All because I'm so naive and everything I'm told sounds so fking believable
I'm sick and tired of the way things are going around me
But I'm stuck in this hell hole and can't seem to break free!
I'm sick and tired of everyone around me
But I truly don't like the intense feeling of being lonely
I know life happens and everything can get detoured
I'm sick and tired of wanting to try and become so discouraged
I talk to certain people and I swear I'm talking to a damn wall!!
I try to discuss certain things and all I get is a blank stare, or a subjected fall
I'm sick and tired of giving everyone else all of me
It's supposed to be 100/100, I want it all, not half, not no bs 50/50
Certain realities somehow became my worst nightmare
But the more I try to reach out to anyone,
it's obvious that no one really could care
I just want so badly to get out of here!!
I'm tired of being surrounded by people just to feel alone
If certain things aren't meant to be
Then just tell me; so I can let go of whatever this isn't;
and start my life over again on my own
I've got so many mixed emotions I don't know if I'm coming or going
But I can't hold it all in anymore, so I just go with it and keep the words flowing
Because I'm far from mentally stable,
So that's why I write, while I'm still very able
I just want peace love and harmony
But I just can't seem to get it; being a part of my family
So when I start writing about one thing it turns into gibberish
I start getting things off my chest so fast it almost sounds like complete rubbish
I'm just sick and tired of taking care of everyone else around me
I should be putting myself first, no one should ever become before me
But that's just not how I was built, so let me down easy
Because the scars run deep, and all I'm trying to do
at the end of the day and night is be…. happy
Stephanie Davis
12/19/2024
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Life is a melancholy parade, a terrible wave of emotion that we ride but you can calm your ocean, you can use the storm to your advantage and sail to tranquility, it's very easy to see a light when you are surrounded by darkness, don't let the thoughts consume you.
Oh if only you or anyone else has an actual idea. My brain is somewhere I wish I could be evicted from.
I can feel the depth of the frustration and emotional turmoil in your words. It seems like you're carrying a lot of weight, constantly giving and feeling unseen or unheard. Life can be overwhelming, and sometimes, no matter how much we try, we end up feeling stuck and alone. Your raw honesty is powerful, and it's important to let those emotions out, like you are doing through your writing.
I genuinely hope you're doing okay. Taking care of yourself and setting boundaries is crucial, and while it might feel tough, you're worthy of peace and happiness. If you ever need to talk or just vent, know that it's okay to reach out. How are you feeling right now? Is there anything I can do to help?
I just want things to be normal. Never going to happen. My mom's dying of cancer and my brothers delusional about it. It's a long story. One I'll eventually tell, maybe through my writing. Not sure yet though. Thank you for your kind words and support! Truly means a lot and I appreciate it. 🫂❤️
Thanks Stephanie !
Likewise.