silenced mind

Cant say how i feel or think, its pushing me to the brink
cant express or even cry, makes me want to curl up and die.
All alone noone cares feel like constantly climbing stairs,
pushed about and shouted at; told im nothing to anyone
no-one likes you not even your mum, no-one i tell you
your just fecking scum.

Listen to me i will make you see; its all your fault nothing to 
do with me, your the worst relationship ive ever had its your 
fault your to blame why im sad. Dont give a damn what you think
please go fetch me my drink.

You best shut your mouth you make me angry or without doubt
you will get a clout. I will tell people your nuts crazy trust me you see
no-one will believe you everyone hates your guts do as i say its my way
i put you up when you had no-were at all. i hate you your evil listen to me
because i tell you i will kick you out 
Once more time of your mouth answering back at me your gone ya c***t

Cannot take much more of this made out to be a bad person accused of things 
i have not done from the time i wake its what you doing youve done this youve
done that, talks about my past relationships knows nothing at all so whats your
point.
Try my best to look after you do everything but i cant even say just help me some day
How can you be so nasty to me you dont even tell people the good ive done
i even try look after your son. Jealous of how close we are if you took the time to spend
with him hed be like yt with you  but instead you pick at me make me cry, shout and 
belittle me tell me its my fault so i listen to meditations at night to help me get through 
lonely nights