Silent screams

I scream so loud I feel my mind 
slip back a pace o feel the grind
I scream inside my head
As I lay here on my bed

When did I lose my self this way
What should I of done to make me stay

I once felt love felt truth felt complete
Then this fear knocked me off my feet

It hit so hard I lost my mind
A shard of me was left behind

I can not breathe I can not see
Past these tears that are ruling me

I can not make the tornado stop
That spins all of my pain
I can not shake this from on top
It's back to me again
What did I do to lose my way
To feel so weak to feel a stray
what will I do to cope again 
To keep inside all of this pain

A surface smile hides my fear
To all of those I hold so near
But be not fooled for I  am wrong
inside my pain I sit and long

Just hold my hand and look at me
Just be the one to set this free
Dont leave me here don't you know
Without you with me I'm ready to go

It strikes it hurts it take me away
From all the good of which I pray
I pray to.a god I do not see
I pray that he will just hear me

I shout so loud inside my head
I do not know this crimson red
I wish no more to hide inside
This prison cell that is my mind