These walls

In the dark i sit and try 
to understand this pain
But when I lose my mind 
It's back to me again 

Inside these walls Im a prisoner of my mind
But every time I try to hide
It waits untill I'm safe and calm 
To make its move of mental harm

I think and think but there's no end
To how I sink I can't pretend

They breathe they move they close on in
These four walls that I'm watching

My eyes are closed but yet I see the stresses and the anxiety 

My ears tune in to the ringing as I try to drift asleep 
It's louder and it's bringing this fear onto me

I.know for life this is my fate 
To be trapped inside this and not rotate 
To be afraid to go to sleep 
To be afraid that I'll lose me. 

Yet every night as I lay here just thinking. Thinking thinking. 
I overtake my sanity with my dear
And feel my heart start sinking

We are not here for eternity
So take my hand and leave with me 

For I know one thing true and clear
I'm living with your ghost and fear

Why did you leave when did you say 
That I'd be strong and you would pray