Simply because nobody understands

I inhale the chemicals that will slowly but surely reach my brain. 
I exhale all my feelings in a loud scream.
I don't know if I can take it any longer.
I don't know I can hold it all in.
I'm a mess that is all over the paper 
The paper that contains the drops of blood from my slit wrist. 
The I'm fine phrase has been the phrase I've used for years.
It has hid most of my depression from the world 
But now they see through it...
They see the cuts.
They see the self bruising.
They see me denying food.
They now see what I go through 
But judge the facts 
That I'm not happy and never will be.
That I'm in a hole that I can't get out of.
That my life has fallen apart.
The life I thought I would enjoy but don't 
Simply because no one understands.