Siouxsie and the Lyric.

Sitting alone of top of a Hill.
The lights of the city shining like a jewel.
Everything around us feels so still.
While I’m fighting this internal duel.
 
Ziggy’s nowhere to be found.
And that is all right with me.
Instead I hear a more primal sound.
As Siouxsie’s trying to tell me how to be free.
 
Lyric’s sitting quietly in the other seat.
Her eyes fixed on that electronic light.
While I just think of some otherworldly feat.
As I bask in the glow of the moonlight.
 
I look out the window thinking of it all.
Of what I want to say and how it will go.
Like I am trapped in some internal thrall.
Where the emptiness is playing some dark game of tic tac toe.
 
Sometimes it feels like it could all fade away
That everything around me is just a twisted dream
Like it is another cruel joke that God must play
Where my emotional torture is just his personal theme
 
Lyric turns from the light to give me a loving smile
While Siouxsie is whispering to me that I have to commit
Like I am Bruce Wayne dancing passionately with Selina Kyle
Finally seeing the layers of their deceit unravel bit by bit  
 
Her dark eyes pierce into my soul seeing what I try to hide
Almost like I am standing before myself similar but different
Not a doppelganger or a twin but a part of me I thought had died
She who is not my creator, but someone I hold myself reverent
 
Lost in thought, I find myself thinking of another life and another time.
Where things didn’t feel so complicated.
Where some things didn’t have reason or rhyme.
Or even how some things could be so belated.
 
It’s hard to admit that I feel like I have feet of clay.
That I don’t know why I sometimes feel like I am the fool.
Yet this feeling inside me does not want to give up or fade away.
And on the outside all I can do is just be quiet and act cool.
 
I always find myself wondering if other people feel like this.
Where they feel like they have to hide themselves in a mask.
Or are they able to find a way to not reveal that there is something amiss
Afraid to know what the other person could ask.
 
But I have to admit the truth to this personal calamity
Even if it something that most people would never be able to understand
That sometimes I feel like I am fighting with my own duality
Afraid that the other part of me is something that no relationship could withstand

That is not to say that I don't know what I feel.
It's just hard to be still when you hear that negative voice 
Wanting to tell you that she will only discard you like a rotten peel 
And here I am holding my ground because that is my only choice 
 
Sometimes I feel like I am unable to win
Siouxsie somehow understands my personal shame
Sadly, it’s just the state I’m in
And I still I know that there is no one else to blame
 
Lyric looks over at me, while I'm brooding like I want to get away from the light
She holds my hand trying to keep me from falling apart
Alone in my cave like some lonely Dark Knight
Just wanting me to relax and listen to my heart  
 
Sometimes that is easier to say than to do
Even when you feel like you are slowly cracking
Wondering how you can when it feels like it is broken in two
 And every little doubt and fear just keeps on stabbing

Those wounds that are still there trying to convalesce 
Echoes of the past that try to tell me that I should be careful
While deep down I know that it's fear trying keep open the abscess
Trying to keep me down and think of only the peril 

I don't want to stand still shaking like some sick child 
Not when I can see her looking at me, wanting me to break free 
Yet here I am still shaking on the inside like nothing's reconciled 
Even as I feel her hand wrapped in mine, seeing what can be 

Sometimes I just want to bend and let it all go away
Throw away the mask and say goodbye to this disguise
Since Lyric sees behind the masquerade
And I am so tired of this dark device.

How I would love to be able to stand up and rise 
Above the sea of despair and beyond my many scars 
As I can still see the spot where I almost met my demise
While I can still feel them on my legs like lead bars 

Lyric's eyes narrow almost like she could see it 
That pain that has been buried so deep 
Rotting on my soul like a giant pile of shit 
Knowing that my soul is the greatest prize to reap.

Siouxsie continues to the sing her primal tune 
While Lyric plants her hand upon my chest 
The Banshee begins to sing a passionate swoon 
As she is determined to put this pain to rest. 

A memory begins to course through my body 
Trying to abrade the darkness that plagues my soul 
Aroused by the surge those feelings happen to embody 
Two separate hearts trying the return to being whole 

I rest Lyric against me, no more pretense no more fear 
My heart beats even harder while Souxsie continues to roar
While even the slightest touch made everything sear 
Our bodies just continued entangled in a passionate war

Lyric smiles at me like a cat on the prowl
While Siouxsie voice continues to push me further
One wanting me to take off the cowl
One knowing that she is who I want to be with and no other.
 
Deep down I feel like I want to cry
Not because I am sad, but rather how I feel
As I passionately worship her with my eyes 
It's the first time in a long time that I know that everything is real  
 
Slowly the masks start to slide
No more disguises no more deceit
Anything that was in the way before has to be set aside
As we sit under the stars, cheek to cheek thinking about the bittersweet
 
Who are you?
Are you the Cat to my misguided Bat?
Who am I?
Am I the Hero who tries not to fall flat?
 
Lyric’s lips touch mine as she gives me that one last kiss before we die.
I hear Siouxsie telling me that ‘she hates to stay, but then she hates to leave’
She disappears not even saying a simple goodbye.
While Lyric looks at me, Face to Face, as the passions breathe.
 
I think to myself how it would be to die like this
Feeling like I just had I had a taste of something that is deadly if you eat it
But I look at Lyric, and I know that I would be all right if this was our last kiss
Since I know that something this simple is even deadlier if you mean it.