Sleep

I haven't slept in a while amidst all sorts of chaos 
I still walk confidently to bed as if certain that rest will meet me there
I close my eyes as if soon it will happen and I will drift into interesting places 
I don't
I convince myself to pack all the stuff I will need to assist in this adventure
Hot water bottel, check,comfy blankie in place but it seems the angels always forget to collect me
All the sheep I should be counting are nowhere to be found and let's not tease my mind to start making all sorts of sheep stories
I toss and turn and each moment trying to convince myself the one side might just be the one to drift to the space I should be 
Turns out it really isn't 
At this point my mind is pacing all around the room and even my heart has started pacing 
Entering into all sorts of conversations while begging my mind to give me the opportunity to rest
Feeling held up and not knowing the words to say to help ease my mind to find calm 
Before I know it I hear the bustle of the day begin and dissapointed at the failed attempt 
Sleep it truly has been a while 
I feel my mind try slow in the morning when I take my shower but surely I can't shower the whole day to keep all this constant mind chatter at bay 
Have I lost control here 
All I truly would appreciate is sleep