Sleepless nights, endless thoughts

I have a ton of things going on inside my head, so I guess now I’m profound. 
I’m not used to living alone, there’s never no sound.
I sometimes wonder what u are doing this very moment,
But I really try not to go there because I can’t stand the torment. 
It’s like something inside me is broken. 
I start to fall asleep then u appear & suddenly I’m a woken. 
Some nights I feel that ur still here,
But it’s just memories that I hold dear. 
You’re nowhere near that much is clear, therefore a tear- runs down my face. 
I have to accept ur gone without a trace,
So I can move on from this sleepless maze. 
I turn off everything just in case- I fall asleep. 
This night, I don’t want to weep,
So I’ll say a prayer & breathe some air & maybe the next thing I hear is the alarm beep...