Smoker

I need to quit smoking 
Because I can’t handle the choking
It’s a very expensive habit
And I just can’t seem to kick it
I tell people, just one more, one more
Yet I find myself looking for cigarettes on the floor
It’s an embarrassing thing to go through
But, I don’t drink or do drugs, so what else am I supposed to do?
It helps keep me calm, 
But I’ve noticed the sweats I get in my palms
Because the withdrawals are crazy
And without the nicotine I become so lazy
I don’t like the fact that everything is almost yellow
But like I said before, the nicotine keeps me mellow
I know I need to quit because I have a rare artery disease
But, It’s just so hard, I keep begging for one more cigarette please
Go ahead and judge me, I don’t really care
I know what I need to do, but it’s harder than you think
What started as a joke, became a habit, became a bad choice
And unfortunately nicotine took away my rightful voice

Stephanie Davis
11/17/20