So I lie to myself

I said I don't need you
But this just isn't true
I said I am over you
But since you left I'm feeling blue

I said goodbye without a sigh
But now loneliness is drawing high
I made that choice
I now regret
But the decision is set

I thought I wanted freedom
So I left you for that reason
Unwanted solitude through every season

In my mind you were not what I wanted
My ego was highly mounted
Turns out you were what I needed
But I listened not when you pleaded

Now the saying goes for me
You never know what you had
Till its gone
I've shattered my own heart
Its now worn
I dare not utter it out loud
But I miss you
This my darling is true
I'd tell the truth
I would
But my heart lays abandoned on a dusty shelf
So... I lie to myself