Social Standards

You told me i was thin,
So i ate more.
You told me i was fat,
So i ate less.
Then i stopped eating,
Because you wouldn't stop.
And each word you said
Broke my heart into a million pieces
Because all i wanted was acceptance
And all i got was rejection.
Rejection sounds like that voice
In your head saying
"You're not good enough"
It sounds like a whisper of voices
Behind you, giggling at you.
And all those years
Of you saying i was worthless
Led me to this moment,
Crying in the bathroom,
Staring at that bottle of bleach,
As i cry more and contemplate suicide,
"what more do i have?"
And i feel the liquid in my mouth
As i swallow more and more
Of the bitter tasting drink
I feel myself slipping away painfully
"goodbye mum, goodbye world"
As i take my final breath
Waiting for someone to find me.
And all those years
Of you saying i was ugly
Led me
To my death.

Nothing saves someone's life... It just postpones their death- The History Boys