Something I Wrote

Something I wrote because I felt the need too-

I cant deal with the pain. Its overfilling and if I let it loose itll hurt everyone. I mean everyone. Ill end up hurting EVERYONE even myself. I just want it to just go away. My emotions are everywhere to the point where I go crazy and I cant handle it. It just kills me inside when I let it out and it affects the people I love. All of the trust issues eat me alive like I am their last meal. Im so scared that everyone will leave me. That no one will be there. Im so scared that I will be stuck to my thoughts. The overwhelming sense of pain. Just fogging my sight keeping me at bay. My heart, soul, and body swallowed by the demon inside of me. Not being able to breath without the tears choking and coming through my throat ripping at the seams. My eyes blurring with tears and burns as tear gas just inflamed. My anxiety making my stomach twirl in knots trying to jut out and push its way out. My body writhing in in so much pain, shaking so much to the point where all I do is collapse in the wet soil and dirt, My heart ripping out of my chest trying to get away from all of the pain inside. My nails clawing into my flesh leaving trails of blood down my body. I wanna claw it out. I dont want my body anymore, it carries to much pain not one person can handle.i wanna escape my body and this pain. I do. I wanna let my soul free.