Spoken silence

Tangled in a web of lies
Just trying to survive,
trying to make something of myself 
Without any help
Just people tearing me down
It seems I'm losing,
as the darkness consumes me
They say my words are a door, 
A door that opens into my soul
Maybe they're right, and this is my door
A door that no one should open
Yet, they can't resist 
my words are deep,
deeper then the ocean it seems
Honestly, I don't quit understand 
How they see me drowning,
but no ones helping
am I that much of a abomination to them?
its what it seems to be
I'll keep smiling though
just don't be surprised, 
when you can't find me
you seen my pain,
but you chose to ignore
so say goodbye to your little girl,
shes not here anymore