The story of me

Counting the stars count down from 10
Look into my empty head
Find out what's been ailing me 
Fuck it all and just let it be
Hold it in
Save it for
Another time
This is just my stupid life
Why am i
Even alive
All I do is fuck shit up
All I do is fuck shit up
All I do is fuck shit up
I'm just a back up
I'm a reject
Counting the stars I know it's pointless
for it is infinite, but I can't help but wonder why
All I do is fucking cry, over things that do not matter
Do I even fucking matter?
I'm the weird kid, I'm the misfit
I'm the one who just can't fit in
I'm no ones first choice, I'm not even second
I am the last resort for those who just need a temporary date
NO not even a date
I'm the girl for the lonely, the girl for the restless
I am a fling
A FUCKING FLING
This what they've done to me
hold my hand, kiss my cheek
shove their tongue down my throat
then tell me I don't matter! 
Why don't I fucking matter?!
I just want to be someone's special girl
The one they love to love 
Why can't I 
be her.......