Sudden Depression

I’m falling apart,
I don’t know how to start. 
I try to be strong,
But I can only hold on for so long.
Piece by piece I’m crumbling,
My fiends find it quite troubling.
I need someone here,
I need someone to whisper in my ear.
To tell me it’s okay,
To tell me that I won’t fade away.
Trying to feel something more,
Trying not to lock the door.
To numb to cry,
To scared to die.
What can I do,
I look in the mirror and ask “who are you?”
Grasping on to dreams,
I’m torn at the seams.
My mind filled with smoke,
My heart starts to choke.
Reaching for the sky,
wishing I could fly.
Wishing I could see a little clearer,
As I stare in the mirror.
Needing a little spark,
Just enough to light the dark.
Looking at the stars in the night,
Wondering how they always shine so bright.
I’m lost and need to be found,
But help is nowhere around.
No matter how hard I try,
My entire existence feels like a lie.
Do I even have a place,
Or will I disappear without a trace?
Trying to find the meaning to my life,
Longing to grab that knife.
All the effort I give,
None give me a meaning to live.
Bareley getting by,
Forever left wondering why.