SUICIDE THOUGHTS

As the saying goes
"None's perfect"
I know I'm not perfect but I'm not, not perfect either
Not at all
I'm just one shitty person with many wrong doings.
All my life I lived to please others.
Yes to please
But never did I get it right
I hurt the people that mean the most to me.
I hurt them to the point.
To the point where none sees me anymore
To the point where none forgives me anymore
Life was not meant for me
My life is not worth living
I guess the very reason I'm alive is just to hurt
I was a mistake and I know it
Everyday I think, why am I still here?
That's why I don't have friends
That's why I get treated like shit
Because that's what I am
What I do or say is never right
Lies upon another
I can't even count all of them
Lies, yes lies
None knows what I've known for so long
None cares anyway
They just want me dead
They just want me gone 
I guess maybe i'll give them that wish
There's nothing to live for anymore anyway
I want to scream
I want to cry
I want to hide
But the only thing I can do is..
DIE