suppressed memories of tears

Why do I feel this way?

I look different than most people

Why am I not smart from the start?

Your a freak.

Your a retard.

You twit,

I feel fat

I look into the mirror

What do I see I'm ugly.

You will never be important

I have tears and fears .

I have dreams and feelings

I have hopes and goals,

But I am afraid if I fail

That I might fall and not succeed.

I don't feel that I am special 

It's not easy to make friends from the start

When they pick on me and hurt my feelings

Call me names they defy me.

Challenge me sometimes to do things

So that I fit in to make friends.

I use to cry all the time

When people would compliment 

And say your beautiful,

Yes I,m on anti deppressents

Why do I need them?  To feel normal?

Meaning less pills meaningless feelings.

I suppressed my memories from the past

Right from the start and hurt from my heart.

I  always felt god hated me to make me hurt

All the time when people picked on me,

I know now that god loves me for me,

I have people that love me

Who needs the suppressed memmories?

Of the past karma might cast a spell.

On thoes that hurt you.

I have angels in  my life

That protect me guide me,

Watch over me when I sleep.