Surviving step fathers sins

Innocence massacred by evil men's desires,  
Violated, betrayed by those who should inspire  
Love, trust, and safety - these were their crimes,
Raping my childhood countless times.

My world collapsed from their unforgivable deeds,  
Stripping me of all the security a young girl needs.  
Defiled, defamed, my purity compromised,
Leaving me awash with demons' cries.

PTSD's tight clutches grip my mind, unrelenting,  
Haunting memories replay, the torture never ending.  
Trapped in a waking nightmare I couldn't escape,  
The anguish overwhelming, my very soul they did rape.

No salve to be found for such internal screams,  
So I turned the blade unto myself, or so it would seem.  
Slicing my skin to let the inner anguish bleed out,  
Self-harm's dark ritual became my suffering's shroud.

My sense of self-worth shattered, a hollow husk left,
Feeling undeserving of any love, of any life's gift.  
They aimed to fully decimate, to utterly destroy,
But they could never demolish my spirit's infinite buoy.

For within my core burned a resilience undying,  
A fighter's soul that refused to surrender, though battered, still trying.
The path ahead will be arduous, the recovery an uphill climb,
But I'll endure this trauma, one courageous step at a time.

They could never expunge the essence of who I am,  
A Phoenix rising, defiant, reclaiming my self-worth's balm.
Their transgressions will not define my unbreakable spirit,  
I am a survivor, and that truth I'll forever hear it.