Survivor

My parents survived a collision with a car going 90 miles an hour, their car going 55.
My grandfather survived lung cancer, stage three, in full remission.
You can survive an attempted murder, an attempted suicide
I did not survive him.
My brain, newly formed and learning
Did not survive the bobcat, lurking silent awaiting another soul to devour.
A part of my brain stopped forming that day, it did not survive.
Grey matter grew around it like a cavity.
There exists a cavity in my brain that mirrors the cavity in my soul.
A piece of my soul only lived four years, it did not survive.
My body survived the bobcat
But survive does not equate alive.