Teach Me A Lesson

American born- I've got the bull by the horns
There is no getting bored with T.V. and internet porn
I was always told this is the land of the free
But their definition of  "freedom" doesn't look like freedom to me
I've conjured up every  thought that could ever be conceived
I never believed anything because I was told to believe
I'll never be trendy- too much senseless trouble
Substances are used to elevate from the struggle
I am anxious and impatient- everything seems like a hassle
I would murder my lover to obtain the castle
I have a nice personality but I'm a madman inside
I don't know who I am- Been running away the whole time
I need some kind of map because I have no direction
Throw me some wisdom and teach me a lesson