The Decay

So fragile the mind, I must contend for I do not wish upon you, my dear friend.

So strong for you think you are, moving through life, and getting far, going out, having fun, thinking you are the only one.

In one heartbeat more, and less of life can change everything I must convey for this may happen to you one day.

As you lie in your bed visions of life ticking away through your head with your only Brother at your side holding your hand until you died. Others near, and far away couldn't be with you on that day. Too many things left unspoken, too many dreams, and hearts broken. For this guilt is buried deep, but a house to run, and a job to keep. A Grandchild that was so close, closer to Grandma, I cannot boast. For the pain, and loss struck him so profound.

Keep it together

He had his own jail cell as I had mine, 2 different, but one and the kind. Early one morning, so you see, he took his own life to be free.

Keep it

You stay strong for you must, for you must, for you are the only one that you entrust. Going to work and getting by while thinking you are so strong as life slips by. Wandering an empty house in pale light, crying, and screams fill the night it wears, and tears at your soul. Too many questions, not enough answers; the guilt is there, but you are not. A big house too big for me, what has happened to our Family? No closing doors except my own, no lights left on, no one home, no laughter, no fights, no sterio blaring, so many tears, so wrong you leaving that way, can't stand the silence; is haunting. The home we once shared smells of decay, mail piled up never opened, too busy to notice as you keep your life that's rotting away bit by bit trying to keep it together so others won't realize your demise. Keeping it together as you know you should as Mother always taught you to try and do good.

Keep

But then one day you snap, and you break with an audience watching as you deteriorate. You stop going to work as you no longer care, not caring for yourself, or brushing your hair, as you are just not there. The house payment is late, the power's shut off, you don't care you wonder if sunrise is in your fate. No more 401K for you've sent it far away, to a lover, or so they say; wait for me as I'll be home, some day, and yet you keep waiting for him in your deteriorated mind to come home, supposing to arrive, but still all alone.

Together

The home, and the lover, and the money all gone. Family, and friends, well they leave you alone, they can't handle your mental decline, it shines in their face, and makes them blind. You don't notice; you can't.

It

I'm still in my cell full of guilt, and mad as hell, cause of you, you placed me here waiting for Satan to take me home. The very one I could call my own. How could you leave me all alone?

Keep

So my wish for you tonight, as I look upon a full moon with star's so bright is that you have a Guardian-Angel-Fairie to be blessed with as I have. Someone to help you find your life anew, to seek out life's hidden treasures, as they are abundant, as you take a fresh amazing journey where life will abound beyond your wildest dreams in a life re found. As life is temporary; death is not.

Keep it together