The Escape

Darkness embraces us
we all are guilty
for having a bad
consciousness
 
I have been abused
and walked away
I am a child
who has been saved
 
Ive been saved
from satan
and saved
from hell
 
im saved
from you
and
from everyone else
 
ive laughed
i’ve cried
and i’ve been hurt
all my life
 
I have been fatherless
and i’ve been to jail
i have been guilty
of building my own hell
 
I asked and asked
for the guy to leave
but then i begged him back
so he could bring back the heat
 
the heat of abuse
the heat of stress
the heat of me hearing
my mom get his left
 
me and her
have been through allot
but still where closer
than most people are
 
but even though i’m saved
im still lost
he ruined my childhood
tossed it out
 
The past he made
is my reality at last
he took physical abuse
and whipped my ass.
 
His physical abuse
turned verbal
once i got old enough
to bear
 
So physical turns verbal
both are pain
what was once physical
is now stuck in my brain.