The matter

Pulse in lips 
Beat in chest
Sort of going dizzy
Standing up is best 

Feeling your going to faint 
Argue with yourself, don’t!
Can’t ask for help
It’s not can’t, it’s won’t 

Want to be strong, everyday seems a battle
Like the frustration with a child, wrong hand, given a rattle
super blessed with a life so great
Sometimes it feels negativity  taking over,  causing this state 

Of panic and what ifs and the worry just flows and flows 
What ifs and what could be done, brain just lets it flow
But do try and fight it because it is an absolute nuisance 
For all hope to be seeing is light a little bit translucent 

We worry about worrying and what it will do to others 
We worry about are loved ones worrying so we try to help are others
So away are negatives are kept in a draw that will not obey
To keep tight shut, will it fuck, out it comes to play