The power of our Mind

I am lost in these dark walls of pain.

The hurt is here but why has it came?

I was fine just a moment ago

Where did all the lights go?

I walk and the fear rises up and up

The darkness falling in my heart

Surrounding my light in clouded insanity of pain and misery

We were happy I thought?

We were here together where did he go?

I scream inside for his help as loud as I can

The noises and voices in my head have a nasty plan

I can't see anymore only hear every horrid thing the world has said to me

Flashes of things with voices I remember blocking my lights

Damn it WHY can't I find a path through this misery and pain

Why are these voices saying this?

'Better off dead'

'You deserve it'

'If you hadn't done this'

'It is your fault'

'Just end it now'

'They don't love you'

'You hate yourself'

'Blood'

'Knives'

NO NO NO NO NO NO I scream

I will be saved I know it.

The light is here it has to be!

as I stumble around the voices, the words, the darkness and the flashes of awful things my life brought to me

As I scream for help inside I see a flash of things that I swear had him there

"WAIT FOR ME" I scream as loud as can be

Only to shift back to reality

My running, the voices, the pain the darkness were in my head

I remembered to look around and see the destruction I felt but didn't see

My misery had engulfed me again you see

The flashback was too real

The blood is there

The cuts are back

The voices were mine

I listened asleep in my dreams to find it found me and he had tried

But the flashbacks were too intense to fight again

I lost this battle as the war keeps raging on

My mind the lights the happy is there

But the black hole of my mentality swallowed me today and I regret I didn't see it coming cause now as I heal the repercussions of my life may just destroy me tonight while I sleep..........