The remnants of her love

I had my chance 
And somehow I blew it
I know that you love me too
As much as I love you

The keyboards on our computer
Can only get us that close
And all the cameras we used
Just couldn't stop the loneliness

I wanted to get on a plane 
And ran straight into your arms
But what we want and what we can do
Is the difference between fantasy and reality

You told me " that you would go to bed early
Just so that you can dream of me
And at that moment I felt happy 
And then I felt guilty for not being with you

because I was worried to go to sleep 
Because I was afraid that I might awake
And realize that all this that we have
Was just a dream

But our love was not a dream.
It was two lovers couldn't be together
Falling apart, breaking our hearts
With the remnants of love

A love that's true
A love that's pure
A love that's right but not meant to be
A love so worth dying for

The distance was our crime
While love was our defense
And through the mist of our love
We both know to hold on made no sense

But still, neither of us would let go
We were thousands of miles apart
But love made our hearts beat as one
But it was a battle we would lose

You have your world 
And I had my world
And though we love each other 
From our world, we couldn’t break free

And then you got ill for a few weeks 
And I was completely helpless
That when I realize 
that I couldn’t keep you hanging on

and waiting for a love 
that would never bear its fruits
although the seeds were planted in our hearts
the tears and miles apart kept it from bringing a harvest

and I couldn’t do that to you again 
so, I started to ignore your text more and more 
while missing you like crazy
but pretending that I didn’t care

because we couldn’t be together 
our personal baggage was too heavy
and what kind of people would we be 
if we abandon our responsibility

so, I decided to slowly break us up 
 and started to let her go 
but I miss her and I love her and I wish to be with her
but we met at a wrong time in our life

she didn’t want to end our relationship
so, I lied and said that I met someone else
and I hurt her because I love her
and because I didn’t want to hurt her 

I don’t know if anyone will understand that
But I love her with all of my heart
And I could never look at or love anyone again
But I had to end our love affair because we couldn’t be together 

I miss her every second of every moment 
And tears come to my eyes when I hear her favorite love song
“when I'm with you “by sheriff”
And I learn to live with my grief and heartache 
And the remnants of her love