The scares on the heart never heal

when I go to bed you are still by me side
I feel your breath on my neck
I feel you holding me close
I see your face closing in on mine
I feel your hair on my neck
I feel your words in my ear
I feel your lips on mine
And then suddenly a wave of anger and hatred washes over me
Why should I still feel these things when you are out fucking some other innocent victim
Why do you do this
Do you want to be cool
Yeh well go be cool in another continent cause if I see your face again I am going beat you till you look like I did when I was with you
I saw you twisting my arm
I saw you getting the belt ready when I said no to sex
I saw you practising your punches on a boxing bag
I saw the gleam in your eyes and my head screamed run
But I knew you would catch me
I saw you closing in on me
I saw you lock the bedroom door
You should go fuck yourself
Because your life is a fucking mess
You seem to think girls are your toys
Girls watch out
He is a fucking bastard
I felt the anger slipping out
As that went the feelings for your disappeared
I hate you
I will never forgive you
Never come to me or you will regret it for your life