Theres a pain

Theres a pain in my heart 
that runs very deep 
it haunts me through the day
haunts me in my sleep
the dreams that i dream
the terror i feel
remind me of the memories 
so painfully real
the touch of his hands
the abuse done to me
many years of hell 
that she didnt see
it tears me apart 
i feel so alone
without any hope 
no place to call home 
needing assurance 
that i did no wrong 
than maybe ill find it
the will to go on.