Timing

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time
Not to fix things or change things
Just to remember how certain moments felt
I relive moments with people I now don’t know.
I regret things that I can’t control
Dreaming of ways things could have gone
Wishing my heart didn’t long for things
That it’s never going to get.
I’m moving forward
I’m built anew
Yet still part of me really misses you
The frustration at the realisation
That the only thing against us was the time.
A wrong moment, a wrong meeting
And now watching who you’ve become
I realise how we’ve changed
But the years washed away what we once were
Leaving only ruins and the broken up remains.
Don’t misunderstand me
I’m not broken-hearted
I just wish we could have met after we had started,
Discovering what we really wanted and who we were really are.
Because now forever in my head,
Whoever I love,
However much I forget you
However happy I become.
In the corner of my mind, I will forever wonder.
What if we had never kissed,
What if we had never fallen in love
Only to tear each-others hearts a part.
Would we now meet one winter evening,
Knowing who we are?
But then I know that if that were,
We would both be different now.
So in my head, I like to keep us
By the sea, under the stars.
Holding on to the people we once were.