"There it is"
At that moment I didn't know whether to smile or cry
"I want to see it"
I knew you were about to die
I wanted to throw a fit
She quickly turned off the screen
"Come with me"
I felt as though I were about to commit a crime
this decision should've been mine
Days of denial yet I knew I was responsible for your survival
So many sleepless nights
Too much pressure
Too many fights
"Just relax, it'll be over before you know it"
It was too late to quit
I closed my eyes
Feeling my heart beat out of my chest
I remembered him saying
“this is for the best"
Years have gone by
It still hits me from time to time
Harder than the drugs I consume
Living in regret
waiting for my life to resume
Hoping some day I'll forget
That I'm the reason your heart doesn't beat
All I can do is hope someday we'll meet