To find what makes me happy

I hate this season in my life
Could I have asked for something better?
Small mistakes had lead to bigger costs
Taking a course in my field of study
With no enjoyment, what a waste of money
Careers advisers are none the wiser
They don't know how to ask me questions
And they don't know how to help me at all
And every time this happens
I hit a wall
Tilting my head side to side
I'm thinking why, why, why
I want answers, give it to me
Send me a sign
I'll be waiting

I ask myself "whatever happened to my passion for fashion?"
I say I like sewing but I am not growing
To do is to pursue
Can you imagine being in my shoes?
I let past events get the better of me
Because I know a shift had moved me
Perhaps changed my way of thinking forever
That's OK
Perhaps it's for the better 

I just don't always find the desire 
To do something that I really LOVE!
When there's no desire, there's no fire
At least I am being honest with myself now
Than regretting it 20 years down the track
Because I rather do something that makes me tick
That makes me proud, to never look back
I want to live the dream, be the dream
Travel the world and help others grow
When one shall reap, shall sow

Follow my heart, follow my heart 
My world is a work of art 
It's ok I make mistakes
Don't care about what others say
I keep my head up and pray
I go and I go the extra mile
To find what makes me happy