Today I Gave Up

I'd like to re share this poem. I published it in 2019 in April. It's about my narcissistic husband. I wrote this in 5 minutes. 

Today I gave up!
I gave up on trying to make things better.

I’m sick of always being the ball,

And you always being the batter.

Today I gave up!

I gave up on believing that you will ever be sorry.

You will never admit to any wrong doings,

Even when I’m a distant memory. 

Today I gave up!

I realized you never wanted me for me.

Rather you needed me for you,

To look good with your new little family.

Today I gave up!

I realized that you’re not who you said you were.

You had no right to lie like that,

But now that doesn’t even matter.

Today I gave up!

I gave up on believing in you.

Why should I?

Just so you can throw that in my face too?

Today I gave up!

But there’s one thing I’d never do.

I would never give up on me.

Today I gave up on you!