Toxic Relationship

I need to talk; please wake up, at least one of you.

My head goes to places I don’t wish to visit.
My body aches and paces the corridors as yours recovers in bed.
I feel tears stretching my ducts and I selfishly hold them back.
I’m lonely when you hide in your sleep.
There is no point hiding my pain tonight because you will never know how I feel.

I think my heart pretended to be full.
I feel so empty now.

The bottle of wine has smashed my head and taken your mind.
I know you always keep a red under our bed so I don’t get too comfortable.

Growth comes in pairs
Growth comes in spurts
Our relationship is shrinking.

I know at least one of us will fall when progress is made.
I know the other will put things back in this disorientating maze.

Comfort only draws more pain, and pain can only be relieved with comfort.

What chance have we got?
I know that one day we will push each other too far and our cord will snap.

There is a difference between a woman and a lady,
just as there is a difference between a man and a gentleman.
I refuse to believe that a lady would abuse that which she wants to preserve.

Love is only deep when there is enough oxygen to keep us there at our lowest levels.

I wish she wouldn’t turn on me for being comfortable and calm.
Her grip on me is suffocating,
but I am learning to hold my breath a little longer each time.

I am turning blue now,
there is too much poison in the water.

I will kiss you goodbye for the last time whilst you sleep.
I have found my dignity and it does not belong in this fishbowl with you.