Trigger Happy

I base everything off my own personal experiences, I’ve yet to read an entire book in the last 15 years… I read a quote once that said to much knowledge will contradict truths. To be honest,,, I’m just lazy. I’ve always been able to provide well for myself and my family, the rest of my time I spend doing yard work, making things, writing poetry, making music and using my creativity around our home. A typical month for me is, I work one week traveling somewhere. Once I get back I spend the next 3 weeks with my wife, son and dogs. I cook for our dogs, we take them hiking and 7 days a week I hangout in our various outdoor spaces relaxing and enjoy a couple drinks. This particular write is the conclusion I came to by working on myself. 

Through a bad heartbreak I hit rock bottom, that forced me to realize I needed to change. I understood what I wanted and desired… so through that I worked backwards and realized I had trauma from my past I had to accept in order to get to my goal. It took me 2 years of drinking heavy, writing poetry about my dark childhood, creating music before I could finally put the alcohol down and read it all sober. I then deleted that Cosmo account”reborn rob” because I wanted to move on from that version of me or time in my life. Poetry has been my only medicine and healthy outlet to grow as a person. So in terms of research ,,, I feel I have lived it and studied it giving me the comfort to share what personally worked for me. 

I think to often we look for the answers outside of ourselves versus realizing we have what it takes, I just needed motivation to understand or act on what I already knew. 

Well I’m sorry to hear that, I know many people are struggling. My wife and I were pre approved for double the budget that we spent on our home. We take pride in living within our means. I understand some folks are living way within their needs and are still struggling to make ends meet. I wish that wasn’t the case and it does bother me. I’m referring to the research part of your comment as I just don’t research many if anything… my connection in faith that I’m developing has been solely based on prayer and seeing the changes in my life positively. I used to only pray when things were bad and I felt I was never heard or was wasting my time. I realize now praying isn’t about getting what you want but more about being disciplined and being appreciate even in the darker times. As a kid we spent a Christmas in a motel, we moved around a lot and used to fit 4 kids in a 3 person backseat , I only got new shoes once a year, bla bla bla…. So it’s a nice change knowing my son has a better experience of being comfortable. If you ever need a trip to Michigan let us know, we got a nice pet friendly guest room :) . We have experienced making sacrifices to when it comes to certain things. 

Brains are like fingerprints right ? Not any two the same. I didn’t take what you were saying negatively but rather sharing with you my experience as I value your opinion and like your perspective as we have many things in common it seems based on our poetry .