Two Angels

The love of my life passed away three years ago
After 36 years of marriage missing them 
doesn't begin to describe how I feel
There is a huge hole there that will not be filled
So you eventually fill your days with other things
With activities with seeing old friends
But they are empty at the end of the day
Your heart is empty and your house is cold
You have no one to get a cup of coffee for
No one to mess up the newspaper or have the remote
No one to snore and steal the covers
It is hard to explain the emptiness
But then one day a friend drops by
They are holding a wiggly puppy
He is all asses and elbows
He is ornery and barely 5 weeks old
I took him and I was needed again 
For four months he and I were like peas and carrots
We weathered all the storms 
We snuggled together at night
I could talk to myself and not feel nuts
I had to be home to take care of my baby
Bouncer never met a stranger
A mix of American Pit Bull  Terrier and Queensland
A beautiful dog and a smart boy
I took him for shots 
I had him wormed
I did all a doggie parent can do
And he fell gravely ill
I did everything humanly possible 
He was getting better I thought
Then he collapsed in front of me 
He passed away in my arms 
Outside the veterinarian office
He hemorraged internally from poison
The vet was kind and said that even if I had 
Arrived hours before he would not have been able 
to save him
His liver had been killed off due to some poison
I do not know who, or what, or where.
I just know he was poisoned.
He never got out and he was rarely left outside
I went into a deep dark depression
I cried more tears than a human can hold
I fell into a hatred of life and people 
Angry at God
Then one night out of exhaustion 
I fell asleep
I was immediately taken to a park
It was one where we used to have pic nics with my kids
It was a beautiful summer day
I saw my mother in law who has passed away
sitting next to a man 
He was wearing my husband's members only jacket

He turned around and it was my husband
He looked so good and happy 
Not full of pain and age
In his strong arms he held a happy bundle
Tail wagging and barking 
My husband said,, "Hey babe I got this... we are both waiting for you"
Then I woke up and  I wanted to go back to them 
But,  I was at peace knowing my little guy was just fine
and the big one was too.