two sides

I am a girl that has two sides of her,

But both sides are different to everyone,  
I try to bring everyone together,
I try so hard not to be overdone,
    The outside of me is caring and sweet,
The inside of me is screaming with pain,
Smiles i smile day by day are incomplete,
These tears i cry for you come down like rain,
     I try to hard to keep friendships but fail,
Life is not as happy as people say,
As i reread all the painful emails,
I'm wishing she will wipe my tears away,
    Say i only have one side what a lie,
Now it is time for me to say good bye.