Uncontrolled thoughts
It hurts to live, it hurts to breathe.Â
It hurts to be chained i want to be free.
It hurts to know that im left alone
To fight these feelings on my own
In this house i am mistreatedÂ
Walking around feeling defeatedÂ
I try hard to get through my dayÂ
Trying not let out these negative words i potray.
Deep in thought, inside these walls
I stand on a ledge ready to fall.
My mind races my body is numbÂ
I used to be smart, now i feel dumb
Letting these feelings take control
Maybe i really am the fool
People claim me to be
Unsure of what is really out there for me.
Where do you go when there is no place left to hide?
Where can you go so no one has to see you cry?
Hiding the pain is the best way
To keep us from all the wrong things we say.
Holding these chains until the dusk becomes dawn
Suffering from depression  is frowned upon.
I don't even know if this makes sense
Or if you will understand.
Im just a bipolar girl trying to get that winning hand.Â
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Comments
I guess my wtiting sucks
Oh lynzi, your words come from deep places with so much expression and feeling. It tears at the heart and tells the story. You write with the ability to express your emotions and that's a gift. Please keep writing and sharing your story. It will bring strength and healing. I'm so sorry for what you must be facing.
Thank you Gayle. Your words mean alot. Im kind of in a dark place right now. My family seems to not understand and is blind to see. Its amazing that strangers can relate. I look forward to reading your writing too. Im not on munch. Â Mostly at night. Take care xoxox
Without some darkness as a backdrop, how could we see the most brilliant light? Sometimes family can be too close, to involved to understand- but they mean well. I look forward to reading more of your writings!Â
I guess my writing sucks
I liked it and I relate to it many times in my life. I hate when I feel that darkness coming on but stopping it is like actually trying to stop the night from overtaking the sun. It just can't be done. I simply wait for the new dawn. Well done.
The place you go when there is nowhere left to hide is in the open. Your ability to move people is a great one, even more so, the fact you can move strangers. You have a brilliant style. Never think of your art as potentially not good. Always remember, New will always be made, new will always be, and new can always be changed. You are a gift straight from God.Â
~Mark~