Under the influence

(Under the influence)   My head is spinning. ...I   think I'm done n I'm finished..I can't seem to focus ..The drugs n the dosage are messing with my emotions..Nothing seems real..My mind is bugging out..All I have is doubts. .Trying to figure out ..What my life is really about..Right now all I need is a hit n I'm lit n a sip of Masson n I'm ripped. .feeling "like my God" lm looking like a slob..Hearing voices on the side as I fall n I cry..In my mind I feel like im gonna die...Just to realize when I finally open my eyes.. That I'm just under the influence. .Just a different moment but same effect every time!