understand

I just don't understand,
How could anyone stand,
To suffer,
How could anyone stand the lies,
Chats filled with fake hearts and fake winking faces,
Trapped in the back,
And my world is shattering,
And to tell me a bold face lie straightforward my face,
This embarrassment is unheard of,
My vision is blurry,
I'm crying now,
And no matter what,
I can't stop the flow of my rushing current,
I don't want to live,
Please just end it,
I'm not suicidal,
Just confused on my situation.