Unrecognized Face

I look but I don't see. Sometimes I just wanted you to just let me be. My old self I do not recognize but this old self is just a photograph taken 4 minutes before I wrote this. Maybe I'm just running after a memory that I miss. I liked the idea of being free, but this nightmare has imprisoned me. Mirrors hang on the walls, in life I begin to stall. Why can't I seem to find my every lasting bliss, my fate sealed with a death wish. I want what I can't have and have what I can't grasp. I hate to say but I've relapsed. I'm holding on to a corpse, a girl I don't know but god, I love her so. I'm hunting, hiding, dividing. Maybe in life I'm subsiding. I can't let you go, I know you know so. Everything once bold covered in god, now everything covered in rust all that's left is lust. In the end I was good, I did what I should. Every time I open my eyes I'm left in a world full of lies. You cannot blame me, in life, happiness is key. Only there's a lock, time ticks by on a clock. Today is a different day, I wrote what I wanted to say.