UNRESOLVED

You can hit yourself a thousand times and your physical pain could not compare to the emotional pain you have done to me. I begged for help, I cut and bled, the doctors say it was in my head. I tried to speak but they made me keep this awful cancer that eats at me. The most hurtful part is their still uninvolved and I am left with the unresolved. I wake up at night in disrepair, asking God is he sees, asking God if he cares.... Hoping there was a way to make them see, the demons of past keep haunting me. I want them to one day open their eyes, throw up the denial and spit up the lies. To me that would mean that I could be free, if they just would admit they didn’t love properly. What I have tried to gain I now call it lost, I pay for their sins and I bear the cost. How can you forsake what has never been? How can you deny that it was ever sin? How can your eyes close every night and tell yourself everything alright? The worst pain of it all is your still uninvolved and that I am left with the unresolved.