Used and abused

Why do I let you do it? 
Why can't you leave me be? 
Why do you think it's ok, for you to use me? 
And tell me why can't you see? 
That I have feelings too you know
And they run pretty deep, 
If I could switch them on and off
My sanity I'd keep! 
You have used and abused me
For as long as I remember, 
You make me do what you want me to do
To satisfy your member! 
I must be wearing a neon sign
Look at me, I'm a t**t! 
​​​​​​I'm that thing on the floor 
That's just been freshly spat! 
Beat on me and cheat on me
I guess it's all I'm worth!
Like a piece of puked up fodder
Like broken bitty afterbirth! 
Im no one is what you say to me
Tell me I'm worth nothing! 
I'm just an old doll
That someone made for stuffing! 
I am just a punchbag 
That's made of real skin and tissues! 
To get rid of all the anger
Of your "gentlemans" issues! 
I try to run, you won't let me leave
But I'll keep trying everyday! 
Today may seem bleak
But tomorrow I'll find a way!