The Voice Of A Childless Mother

The gift that you've been given
To you was never intended .
The mistake you call your little boy .
We are the women who never had the choice .
She'll never hear her child's voice.
Or see his face light up when he gets that new toy.
The park that you're too busy to take him to.
Same one she fights for the owners to make new .
You'll never know the loss she feels .
Just because you don't see it doesn't make it less real.
For the same gift you treat as a job .
The same one she's prayed and cryed for to God .
When he throws a tantrum for your attention .
The excuses that you're inventing .
Are you comfortable saying you can play with him in an hour ?
Next time smile at him when he picks you a flower .
I used to cry myself to sleep at night wondering how it is even possible
I'd be a good mother yet I am not able.
Yet so many of you mothers and fathers treat your children awful.
And dear Adoption agency,no I don't need 50,000 to be stable .
Don't complain about how much money you spend
Someone out there is spending that and more on fertility treatment that never ends .
Would it really be too much to ask for you to open your eyes.
You have no idea what its like to see you take for granted your God given right.
I have swallowed the fact that God has his reasons and I will never understand .
And sharing my personal and hurtful feelings was never the plan.
I know this may seem hateful and harsh and that's not my efforts.
What I want is what all of us do .
And I'll be the one.
The voice of a childless mother and how what she sees hurts .