WANNA BE

I wanna be you.
It's hard being me...
My head is fucked up 
in ways you can't see...

I wanna be happy.
Too many tears I have cried...
I wanna give up sometimes
But I have too much pride

I wanna be someone 
you notice is gone.
I wanna be the person 
with whom you belong.

I wanna laugh every day
And never feel sad.
I wanna be your best friend
Even when shit gets bad

I wanna be beautiful
Inside and out
I wanna know you love me 
without a doubt

I wanna be responsible,
 I wanna be smart
I wanna work harder
 to finish what i start

I wanna be a better mom
 to my little girl
I wanna be the one she runs to 
when things go wrong in her world.

I wanna be heard, 
I wanna be strong,
I wanna remember
I wanna live long...

I wanna be a better person
Because of you...
I wanna repay you
 for all that you do.

I don't wanna go anywhere
 unless you're there
I wanna be with you forever
I don't wanna share

I wanna feel warmth
 in your embrace
I wanna be the cause 
of the smile upon your face

I wanna be alone 
Until people surround
Sometimes I get lost 
and dont wanna be found

I don't wanna be forgotten 
once I've died
I wanna be your shelter 
And to whom you confide

I wanna exude confidence 
To make you proud
I wanna be the sunshine
Dissipating your dark clouds

I wanna be different
Even if I seem strange
I wanna make a difference
I wanna cause change

I wanna be sane for once
 and finally be free
I wanna be you
It's hard being me.

Heidi Shavill
2016