WARNING! Scroogesque Tome

My thoughts are dark tonight
I tear at “us” like a rabid dog
Pulling pieces lose, ripping strands
Shaking and gutting till “We” barely breathe.

All without saying a word
All without you knowing
The fabric of our joining
Is becoming shredded, inutile 

My self doubts play they’re part
Your irritated remarks, add new fuel
Like many times before
As a parasite I devour from within

Till you and I awake, apart
Without you even knowing
Only by being left
Can I prove to be unlovable

One more, “I told you so”
One more “see? I was right”
Perhaps the last relationships corpse 
I’ll feel the need to dance around

My thoughts are indeed dark tonight
So falls another Christmas 
Discordant bells, runnerless sleighs
And two strangers in the snow