BY THE WAYSIDE

pain took me to a deep dark place
in my soul where i fell by the wayside
contemplating the worst i was swallowed by self-pity
neglecting those i loved to feel the other side
I tossed and turned at night to the reality of sadness
Intense fear of moving on to be hurt again
the devils advocate "pain", a battle had begun
my mind ,body and soul fought with his demons
creating a cage i encased myself with sorrows of the past
letting no piece of future slip through
the present is what unlocked the vicious circle i was in
looking at my family i saw the depression i had affected them
if i carried on the disease would spread
lifting myself bit by bit i forced the happiness to enter my soul
until it became a living part never to separate 
learning from a huge mistake 
pain can,but wont keep me forever
freedom  not solitude