" What A Pain !"? X

" My love life has been a catalogue of errors !
I,ve not found the love iv been searching for 
Just a bunch of awful bleeding terrors !
Each time i let my barrier down once again 
9 times out of 10, It all ends in fucking pain ?
& a little voice going off in me head saying , Here we go again
Same old shit ,  The same old patter
& so obviously so , Thats its only them that matter ?
I,ve ignored all the warnings , Going off in my inner voice !
& i always  seem to make the wrong choice !?
& they are sadly the ones, That have managed to make me moist 
In the end, It all fucks with your brain 
& slowly drives ya utterly insane ?
So much so for now, I,ve chosen to totally refrain 
Until one day , One may show me , That they aint all the same ?
That true love to them , Is not a silly game 
When the love between us both , Is the same !
& to loose such a love, Would be a crying shame 
Especially  the ones, that are well house trained !!
& no doubt one day, I will do it all again ?
& maybe next time, I wont have to take all the blame !?"

Tracy Timothy xx