What am I made of.

What am I made of? 
Rust, dust and broken things
Barbs of ice that pierce hearts
Whilst ripping off my wings
What am I made of? 
Memories of hate unnecessary 
From childhood to women grown
Memories I'll never bury 

What am I made of? 
More than I know
Each mistake I make
Is a chance to grow
But I don't 
History repeats itself
And here I stand
Once again hating myself

What am I made of? 
I am a broken thing
Who tried to hard to fly
And ripped off her wings 
So I'll never fly again
I am likely to fall 
But I'm not going to be a victim 
And I know I can't have it all

What am I made of? 
Sterner stuff, I know
I'm not a little girl anymore
So why can't I grow
I need to pick myself up
Dust off the past 
Forget it as a misadventure
And build a future to last 

What am I made of? 
Iron and steel and harder things
Fuck being disheartened 
I'll build my own damn wings 
I'll get my own future set up
With a goal and a tiny ray of hope
Forget the past 
Focus on trying to cope

What am I made of? 
I dont know, but we shall see
I'm not too downtrodden 
I'll give the best of me
In everything I do
And guard everything I say
Forget everything gone by
Tomorrow is a new day. 
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