What I've learn't to do.

You were my back bone when my body ached with misery,
My person when I had lost my entity,
You reached for my hand.
You left me kneeling .

You stopped the shakes,
Made me believe in something stronger, myy own Identity.
There, across the lakes,
The lakes of labelling, drama, status,
You pulled me through, away from conforming to the distorted society.
You left me kneeling

Smiling over at me,
Now, 
Kneeling in the sand,
I watch you sail away,
You let go, left me alone, sinking on land.
You left me kneeling.

I try to swim after you,
I have lost my person, 
It makes me choke  in the icy, salty  snatching water,
I won’t be left kneeling,
Shattered, torn, numb and empty, No,
I won’t be left.
I’ll fight till I get to you.
Silly thoughts.

Because in reality, you were never mine to be snatched,
I never, not once held your heart.
   As soon as she arrived I was shut into the devastating and brutal cold.
So I swim numbly  back to shore, broken.
The tears trickle down my face as you glance back,
And see me kneeling, waiting, hoping you’ll return,
You missed me nearly drown.
I watch you disappear,
You left me kneeling,

I wait a little, hesitate, 
And Alas,

There is no fear,
None at all, I no longer feel heart break.
I have learnt to let go.
I’ve grown strong,
So that’s what I do,
I get up, hold my head high,
Because that’s what you taught me to do.
Walk away,
And let you go.