"What My Parents Went Through"

"When I follow my self will,
I am not able to heal.

Addicted to a toxic person,
I found no way,
to change that stain.
I racked every inch of my brain,
and put myself through,
so much pain.

I can only change myself.
Good Lord I know now,
through one of the hardest lessons,
I can't change,
anyone else.

No matter how much I begged,
and bled,
I had to finally give it up,
to You Lord,
and walk away,
so I could live instead.

In recovery,
on the brighter side,
of addiction's ugly fence,
I pay homage to Your Glory,
in recompense,
and I see how,
my parents,
begged me to save me,
and going through it with her,
I feel my parent's frustrations,
helplessness,
as I never jumped,
over addiction's ugly fence.

Seeing both sides,
and how,
so many times,
I almost died,
I give her addiction to You God,
because You know,
how hard I've tried,
and I know,
I can only pray,
that she sees,
You are The Best,
The Only Way,
to really stop,
the inner pain,
she feels,
and I hope she,
fully accepts You,
so she can also heal."